Birkenstocks are not fashionable

I was walking down the street around 12:30 this afternoon and I saw a woman walking on her lunch break wearing a fashionable formal suit and Birkenstocks. I understand that summer's upon is, but Birkenstocks are awful. Last time I checked they weren't "business casual" either. Just plain ugly. Birkenstocks, crocks, flip-flops, etc.. Gross!

I'm saving my pennies

I started my day off in search of money. Well, not really money, per se, but investment. I've recently released a new project and I've come to a crossroad. See, in order to make money I need quality traffic. In order to get quality traffic I need members, in order to get members I need to advertise and market the product, in order to advertise I need money. More money then I currently have in my pocket. So, I'm on the final stages of my business plan almost ready to head over to the post office and courier my fancy package to a handful of perspective investors, wish me luck.

Talking about money, we all know how valuable copper is these days, right. I mean, there was a man this past February who was trying to remove the copper valve off of a stolen propane tank, which resulted in a devastating fire leaving 3 or 4 families homeless. I started digging around and found out that the penny, yes, that almost useless one cent piece that most people disregard as utterly worthless could actually be worth something.

Between 1858 – 1996 the Canadian penny was composed of 95% - 98% copper, after which zinc and steel was used. The US penny was 87.5% - 95% copper until 1982 (with the exception of 1943 when it was zinc-plated steel)

So what, right? Most likely. Well, the value of these copper-based pennies are currently about $0.02. I know, I know, you’re not going to retire on the penny, but I've got a bucket full of them. Who knows maybe one day they'll be worth $0.03. Either way, I’m saving my pennies.

I'm tired, exhausted even

It's been some time since I've written here, well a year to be exact. I've been extra busy with projects and trying to, as some say, "put my ducks in a row". I had a super awesome plan in place, which seemed 100% tangible, but after months, and months of effort I feel like my efforts are wasted. Over the last five years I've spent thousands of hours building what I thought to be my dream. I've developed business ideas, poured my life into them and here I am five years later with nothing. Not only broke, but broken.

I've read countless personal development books & blogs and watched too many movies on the subject to count. I've always been a positive thinker, I've had to be in order to do what I do, but I wonder, what happens if I've just wasted five years? Should I have just stayed in the regular work force, earned a livable salary and been happy? Now, almost at my breaking point, I can't even find a job. I decided to look around for some work but no one seems to call me back. Could it be that my resume isn't impressive enough for Wal-Mart? I’m a hard worker. I know this, my friends and my family knows this, I just don't understand.

I'm still focused on my business projects, ultimately I can't imagine my life without them, but I'm tired, exhausted even.

It’s funny how much I’ve missed it

So it’s been quite some time since I’ve been able to write on my blog. I can’t say that I’ve been here nor there, just a little busy. A colleague of mine recently handed over a website that he’d like me to re-build, improve and run so I’ve been spending about 90% of my time searching for ways that I could improve on it design as well as the current content. I guess what’s been taking up most of my time is the fact that this particular site is based on investing in the stock market, something that I currently do not do. I’ve been reading, researching and learning everything there is to know so that I can provide a positive service for the current members on the site. I mean it’s not like I’m giving advice or anything like that, I’d just like to have some background, you know? Aside from that I’m finishing off a book that I’ve been writing for that last while. I’m so close to completion but it seems to be a stage of writing that is most difficult. Summing up my thoughts and editing, etc. I can’t wait until I type the last period and send the manuscript off to be edited. Hopefully there aren’t too many changes from the editor. I’m going to try my best to keep writing here as often as I can. It’s funny how much I’ve missed it.

Hampering my overall desire

This is an entry for most of my friends who read my blog. I’m going through a transition period in my life and I’ve come to realize that in order for me to reach the emotional comfort that I’d like in my life I must remove myself from many of the daily activities and routines that I currently take part in. I’ve realized that certain things are making my body and mind ill, so from this point further I will be removing myself from such things as Facebook, MySpace and MSN. I’m not sure exactly how long I’ll be away form the “social networking” scene, but it is something that I have to do in order to bring my life to the order that I desire. I’m still going to be making entries to my blog and I’m still accessible via other methods of communication, just not through the more public ones. I have found that there are just too many unstable emotions that are hampering my overall desire.

Pause my thoughts

I’m stuck. I have writer’s block. It’s been a few days and I can’t seem to write. I think the problem may be that I’ve been focusing my energies on some other, not as important or relevant things. This is not good. I’ve had my mind on some things that I’d prefer not to think about. Maybe I’ll just visualize a control panel in my head, you know like the one on the front of a DVD player, and pause my thoughts.

I’m still looking for the right answer

It’s been a few days since I’ve written anything here mainly because I’ve been away from my computer. I spent a few days in the city at my sister’s place and did massive amounts of paperwork. Government paperwork is always the worst. I had to renew my passports and get some new government issued items that I seemed to have misplaced some time ago. The funny thing about being in the city is that now it seems to make me sick, literally. Last time I was here I found myself feeling extremely ill and I had just thought that it was the weather or that time of the year to get sick. But again I’m back in the city feeling sick. I think there’s just too much emotional baggage here and my body is rejecting it. Either way, for the first time I am actually looking forward to leaving today. It’s not that I’m not having a great time, and catching up with some old friends, it’s just that I’m finished here now. The main reason I was coming back here was to file the extensive amounts of paperwork, now that I’m all finished with that I have to really ask myself if there is any reason to be here. I’m still looking for the right answer